Album II by Kem

Tonight was some straight bullshit! Well, it wasn't too bad with my lovely sorors. I always have fun when I'm hanging with those crazy, loud ladies. They invited me to a fight party thrown by a cute (but short) Omega. How ironic that I'm using purple; that usually never happens. The Ques were hospitable and fun, and they enjoyed the sorors! They even had some "Mating Oil" or Passion or whatever they called that grape lemonade concoction. Trust that it was not just grape-ade because the alcohol was there. It was all gravy between da Ques and the Rhos. (I hate being called a Rho, but I let 'em have it for the night.)

The bullshit started with these two older men. One was cool. We flirted from the start, and there seemed to be something drawing us to one another. Then, I met another one who was significantly older but didn't look it. Why was he so freaking direct about wanting to get some??? I'll give him credit that when I asked him if he was always so fresh with the ladies, he confidently answered, "Of course." At least he didn't claim some mess like, "No way! You're the only woman who has ever made that side of me show. I've never been so direct with anyone." Well, I talked to him for about 15 minutes, and I had to inform him that I have self-respect which should have been a clue that I wouldn't let him hit it and quit it. Not having that bull. Why did we go back in the apartment, and this older fool (damn near 50) actually slipped into a dark hallway like I was 15 and gonna let him grope all over me...at a party...with other Greeks??? Whether there were Greeks or not, I respect myself too much to put myself in such a dumb situation. I let him slip back into the party, but I didn't talk to him after that. Why did he hit on my soror standing next to me and about 5 other women before I left?

The other guy wasn't too bad. At least he wasn't trying to get in my pants immediately. At least he didn't throw around all kinds of X-rated (NC-17 for those that aren't familiar with X-ratings) for my body and what he wanted to do. I took his number, but we'll see where things go.

Dudes be on some straight bullshit in the A, and I wish I knew why. The sad thing is I know there are some good guys out there, but they avoid me like the plague. Maybe I do have a flashing sign that says "EASY" somewhere over my head. I just know that I have too much respect for myself to just give it up. I want a real future with someone, and I won't get it by putting my feelings out there or forgoing feelings in the interest of having sex. I think I'm going to stop trying to figure this out, but I'm going to keep all of this bullshit in mind as I continue to attempt to date.

Meanwhile, I titled this "Album II". This is the CD that I thought I'd never listen to again thanks to the guy that I really wanted. I decided to reclaim that CD tonight. As much as I cared about Michael, I care more about myself. I want my sanity still intact, and the situation with him does not deserve to take away a great CD because he couldn't handle the idea of committing. It's not as bad as I thought because I'm already on Track 6 out of the 11 tracks. Well, I skipped track 3 because I don't like it, and there's probably one more uptempo track that I won't tolerate. I have another CD to reclaim after this one.

In the meantime, I still have to go to bed so I can wake up, work out, and do other stuff. I'm going to have a great week because I've been working out. I even walked for about 20 minutes today, and the walking included 2:45 of jogging. I'm making some things happen! Two a days will be great.