Like the 7.2% unemployment rate and how it's affecting my rationale in the midst of my euphoria before I start my 10-week Commercial Truck Driving course.
Lord knows I have prayed before walking into a job in the past, and I still find myself doing that in my current position at the company I label as "a terrible place in [a suburban area north of Atlanta]". Prayers will definitely cross my lips on Monday when I walk into work after a nice weeklong vacation. More like drag myself through those transparent doors and fighting back tears when I press the up button for the elevator.
More than anything, I want to walk away from that job without a second thought. Just leave behind the insanity disguised as commerce. Well, not all is terrible at my job because I sincerely dig my manager. If it wasn't for her, I would not have taken off the very first week of the year, but she understood why I had to. But even with her being supportive and understanding, I really, really want to leave that place behind. The idea of quietly resigning fascinates me even more as my future in truck driving is only 10 weeks away from being my reality. If the image of me drooling like Homer Simpson at the idea of resigning comes to mind, you're not too far off.
Yes, I want to walk out on faith that God will be with me as I study to drive trucks professionally as a full-time student. But reality smacks me in the face when I watch CNN or read articles like the one above or this one about job security. God may want us to walk out on faith in some situations, but I'm sure He doesn't want any of His children to be foolish in this economy. As much as I despise and abhor my job, there are literally thousands (if not millions) of people that would love to sit in my (rather spacious) cubicle, answer the litany of calls and emails from not so bright customers, and earn my rather decent paycheck and benefits. As much as I can't wait to get away from that place, I have to wait and personify the virtue of patience. I must.
After all, the economy has affected so many industries and downsized thousands of employees. Trucking was also affected. So, it would honestly be a decision of tomfoolery to leave now. But I will continue to fantasize about it as I play Megamillions... and endure the next ten weeks of an intense schedule.
Pray for me, people.
4 comments:
i'm praying for ya sistah girl. We can start calling each other again in the murnin's for that "inspirational vitamin". Okay, why did i just have a thought about Andre 3000 and his Vitamin D **lawd my hubby gonna give me three smacks**
call me in the morning. anytime after 7a works for me.
SupaChica ;-)
Prayer in session! (smile)
Jaycee
I will keep you in prayer soror. I know what its like to have stress pains before going into work, and sitting at your desk feeling sick to your stomach because you want a career change.
I say step out on faith and do it...you never know what it may bring!
@ SupaChica - Aww thanks! I may have to take you up on that in February. If I have the rest of my stuff together in the AM.
@ Jaycee - Thanks for the prayers. I love when folks are in agreement with me. :o)
@ Fantasy Eyes - I'll be more prone to step out after I have my license and a company has a new job for me to step out into. 71,000 jobs lost on this past Bloody Monday was too much.
I'm so glad I didn't quit when I wanted to b/c I would've taken a part time at Starbucks, and they're shuttering stores and laying off. Can you say, "Whew!!!"?
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